Miss being a stay at home mom.

I am technically a Stay at home mom , but I babysit to make ends meet.  I can NOT afford daycare .  I have already done the math, I have been a stay at home mom for 5 + years , no work experience since 2007.     I have only a technical college degree which doesn't go far.     So most jobs , and with the economy the way it is I would be lucky to make 12.00 an hour.  Putting both girls in daycare is about $400.00 full time a week, unless i can find a stay at home mom that will do it for about $300. 00 that would only leave me with about $150.00 a week if that.   There's no way to survive on that.  I don't get government assistants only because i know there are people in worse condition that need them more then I do.   Anyways, I get by on what I make a week plus my girls are taken care of by their father.      

Only thing about babysitting from home is if someone doesn't show I don't get paid.  Yes I could have it in a contract but most of my parents only need me 2 days a week.    This week I haven't worked that much, only 2 days really.   I can honestly say I miss being a stay at home mom.   I miss being able to pack up and go to the park and take a picnic, have playdates during the day.  It has been so much fun.     I have a lot of things to be grateful for.  My kids are healthy, I'm healthy , we have food, a roof over our heads, we do well for ourselves but there's just some days I look at my friends that are stay at home moms and get jealous of what they have.   I know that their life isn't perfect like they make it seem like on Facebook, but I do miss having someone at night to talk too, I miss just being able to devote 100% of my time to my children like I always wanted too.  I miss being a part of a moms group.      I wanted to homeschool them as well and now that plan has changed as I am doing homeschool kindergarten I am waiting for my other daughter to be able to go to school.       I know some of my friends enjoy working and believe me I can't wait until I can actually go get a real job with steady income, benefits , retirement.   In my heart I knew i always wanted to be a stay at home mom for as long as I could and now that my journey has changed.  I have embraced it, but some days are harder then others.    You always think you have your life figured out and it could change just in a short period of time, like mine did.

what to write about now?

My blog use to be the use of reviews on certain places that I visited around NJ, then I moved to NC and it became an outlet to network.  Now that I'm back in MD and I am finding it hard to what to write about.  I could write about single mothering, I could write about different fun places to take the kids.  There's so much that has happened in over a year.   What would my readers like me to write about?

A new life.

I have been neglecting my page I feel like.   But almost a year later and my life has changed.

I'm a single mom with two different little girls. One that's a princess the other that's the rock star. Yeah they are only 3 and 4 but they sure do have a different personality.


I'm here to start my new blog ..

I think it will be therapeutic for me.

I'm back!

I took a little break in blogging.  Unexpected things in life happen.  But I'm back !  I'll be catching up with blogging.  I'm now a Stay at home mom/working mom in my house/homeschooling! I'm busy 24/7, no matter what life throws me I can survive it! I'm strong and teaching my girls how to be the same way!

HG awareness day

http://www.wect.com/story/18240472/special-report-when-morning-sickness-gets-out-of-control

Please take time to read.

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homeschool lessons outside

Sometimes everyday things can be used as a lesson.   We went outside today and the girls collected leaves off of the bush.   They started with the yellow ones.  So I decided to make a lesson out of this.  I told them to collect the yellow ones off the bush they did, and put them in a cup holder.  They collected a few green and brown.  I made them sort the colors and then count how many leaves they had.  they had so much fun doing this!  We had 31 yellow, 4 browns and 3 green leaves!

How people can't understand sensory issues

I am still amazed after I tell people that Pozzy has sensory issues, they brush it off.  Act like it's all in my head or they will not take time to understand that she has sensory issues!!! I don't know if some family is in denial or if its an old school thing where they just don't get it.  I have no idea but my child is different , i don't treat her different but somethings she does , she does need a little different treatment.  Ugh it just irritates me!!!